Reading scripture (convicted)

Recently, I have realized how I read the Bible. Reading the Bible is about the only book I read besides textbooks, so I do enjoy diving into scripture. When it comes to reading it in context, I think it is best to read the bible in the context of a person who is loved by God unconditionally and eternally. But lately I realized that I don't really do this.

Most of the time whenever I read a passage, from either the old testament or the new testament, I always place myself in the spot of the character who screwed up or who is wrong in their actions. When there is no bad guy in the passage I usually constantly try and search for something that I am doing wrong and pray about it and try to come up with ways to change it. I am just realized that this is not great for my relationship with Christ. It is important to look at scripture as a testament to God's love for us. When one reads the Bible, they should look at the characteristics of God that the passage demonstrates. In response to this we should fall more in love with Christ and increase in our relationship this way.

Alot of times I feel like I read scripture and it just shows me how much I am screwing up or what I unplowed ground that I need to break up. This is not always bad. Being convicted from scripture is good and it directs us back on the path toward a life that is headed for righteousness. But in order for my relationship with Christ to truly grow it is necessary for me to also see how great God is and look at his grace and accept his love and love him all the more as I get to know him.