thoughts

So after I have done this prayer thing in the morning, which I admit I was not always consistent in the times I did it, I still have a few things I realized.

First, I realized if I spend time asking God to change my heart to put Him and his will on my mind throughout the day, He will.

When I pray for other people more often, I have learned that I generally care more and more about them. I become more intentional and love them more. This has been mostly the product of our Oak Hills prayer list and from just attempting to pray for our leadership. But also this extends to the people I pray for outside of anything like that. Such as random prayer requests people send my way and my prayers for my family.

I generally seem to have more peace and feel better when crappy things are dished my way. Such as when I found out I did not do so good after an exam.

The most significant thing I learned though, is that I still do not love the Lord as I should. I do not consistently think about him and treasure time with Him like I should. Why should I want to do anything besides spending time with my creator, father, and source of my salvation, and the one who loves me more than anyone?

Today, I was spending time in prayer and at the time I did not have access to my Bible. But I imagined opened it up. The first thing that came to my mind was the treasures in Heaven. I don't think this was an accident. How much do I really put worth into my relationship in Christ? How often do I still not trust God to provide me with what I need? Why am I not just letting God take over everything? I really agree with Darren on his post about "Just being" I think we all should attempt to let God really take hold of our lives.