Journey back

So after class today I was thinking how it sucks that I feel like no matter how much I study for classes, I always feel behind. I feel like I can never keep up. And even in class I can't grasp every detail in the lecture. Then I thought about the fact that I haven't spend much time with Christ lately. I feel like I have used school and everything else going on in my life as an excuse sub-conscientiously. This is dumb because I know it is a poor excuse. But when you can use up all your time just to seemingly stay at pace in school only to realize that you are not, it drains you pretty quickly.

The fact that I have not blogged this month very much is only another testament to myself that I have not spent time with Him. This blog of mine is for me to journal my thoughts and record what God is telling me and teaching me. When I am not spending time with Him, it is a little difficult to blog about what He is teaching me, surprise right?

Anyways, this is what I think I need to do, for whatever its worth, to stay consistent in Him. I am going to intentionally set a good part of every morning to spend 30 minutes in prayer and to read as long as it takes for God to speak to me through it. Feel free to keep me accountable is thing. I did this for a while back when Kolia suggested to read scripture for an hour. But I feel like I need to spend at least 30 minutes talking to God and just to be in silence with Him.

God is gracious and God is good and I think what He is telling me is that if I give Him time and spend time with Him, he will make the time I spend in the books and in school more efficient. If I focus on Him, He will provide and he will take care of me. Let me reiterate, Please if you feel like you are willing to hold me accountable on this, then by all means do so. For me all it might take is "So, you haven't blogged in awhile, Derek..." That would be sufficient to remind me.

Lord take hold of my spirit, Holy Spirit make my will one with you, Lord.