God's Love

Today God reminded me how much he loves me. It wasn't from anything anybody told me today or even something from prayer. God just moved into my heart.

I was sitting there in church thinking about how I could reach out to my friends that do not yet know of God's love. This was spurred by the many confessions of Joe Boyd had for the church. It just really got to me that as a church we don't go out of our way often to reach others and touch their lives with the love of Christ. Yes you can say by loving them we earn the right to be heard, to eventually speak to them about Jesus. But I feel like this is just used too much as an excuse to not be bold enough with proclaiming the gospel by to many people including myself. But this is not really why I am writing this post, this is just the means of how I was touched by the Spirit of the living God today.

So I was thinking about how I would improve my boldness and what I could say to the people in my life that don't yet know about Jesus. And God just very plainly said "You know how much I love you and love them, so just tell them. " I then tried to wrap my very diminutive mind around the love of God and I just could not handle it.

My mouth got dry, my heart raced and I just felt this overwhelming embrace. And then I started to weep. Right there, during the middle of service. In fact, right now as I am reflecting on this, I can barely hold back the tears.

Now, if you know me you know I don't cry often at all. I can probably count on my hand the number of times I have cried. But I had no control over this.

This was an important thing that happened to me today. Simply because I have felt for a long time that I have been seeking the Lord and have not really heard Him or felt Him really move into my heart. In no way am I blaming Him for this. I most likely have not been looking in the right places or listening to Him. I try to learn more of Jesus and read about Him but nothing comes close to feeling simple, yet complex, immeasurable way that our God loves us.

If I could only put into words.